10.18.2006

October 18, 2006

Dear Mr. Bush,

The boy won't sleep tonight; tossing and turning in his crib, screaming and crying for me, for his mother, for horses and dogs, for books and water. None of that is coming his way, of course, because it's late and it's dark and it's time for him to sleep. His music is playing quietly, but no matter how long I gently rub his back, he simply won't stop squirming, uncomfortable in his growing body; pained by the simple act of bones stretching and shifting to change him from a baby into a boy.

Standing there in the dark, growing increasingly frustrated and increasingly more in love, it made me think about the children born on the first night of your bombing campaign--babies whose first cries of life were echoed by the screams of those around them, terrified at the firestorm raining down from above.

Today those children are three and a half years old. They are walking now, talking too. They have favorite games and songs they love. They probably have new brothers and sisters now, still babies, but growing older. They have pictures they've drawn pinned to a wall, the crooked lines carefully sketched by their wavering hands. They have secrets they keep from their parents and things they share only with their friends. They were babies when the bombs began to fall, but they are not babies anymore. At three and a half they are people, autonomous and strong. And, at three and a half, your war is all they have ever known.

If their parents are good parents, they have tried to shield them as much as they can from the horror that has befallen their homeland. If their parents are good parents, they try and shelter them from the terror that lurks in the dark. If their parents are good parents, they tell them sweet lies every night, holding them tightly and whispering things will be all right, dear softly in their ears.

But their parents, even the best of them, can't hide them from the reality that your war has caused. Their parents, even the best, can't light their homes, can't clean their water. Their parents can't protect them from the evil that lurks around every corner now, from the mobs looking to kill, from the soldiers killing to "protect," from the bombs that spring from the streets below and the ones that fall from the skies above.

No Mr. Bush, their parents, even the good ones, can only hold them close, touch their hair lightly, and lie about hope.

Yours,

Dan

PS. It's been an age, hasn't it?

7.01.2005

June 14, 2005

Dear Mr. Bush,

Yesterday the senate apologized for not outlawing lynching. I'm not sure which is worse: the too-little too-late aspect of it, or the fact that a fifth of the senate body either didn't co-sponsor the resolution or refused a roll call vote. What year do we live in again?

Dan

June 13, 2005

Dear Mr. Bush,

The heat continues to build, in what is shaping up to be one of the hottest Junes in Chicago history. Bike rides to and from work are an uncomfortable but necessary practice, as we went down to one car back in December. The money we've saved helps, absolutely, but I'm paying it out in sweat this month.

Dan

June 12, 2005

Dear Mr. Bush,

Watching the Sunday morning talk shows today, did you feel the ground crumbling from beneath you? Members of your own party have begun calling for accountability in Iraq, asking for withdrawl time tables, and acknowleging how difficult the situation on the ground is. When those loyal to you start to bolt, Mr. Bush, it's time to worry.

Dan

June 11, 2005

Dear Mr. Bush,

The heat won't let up. Our poor window air conditioner is struggling to keep even one room in our home cool enough to be tolerable, while all of us have taken to walking around in as few clothes as possible, bodies--from the tiniest to the biggest--slick with sweat. It's going to be one of those summers, isn't it.

Dan

June 10, 2005

Dear Mr. Bush,

After two weeks of family visitors, our home is finally our own again. It's been a wonderful time of sharing our new life with those that are close, but there's nothing quite like feeling like you can relax into a half-awake slouch on your couch after weeks of being a host.

Dan

June 9, 2005

Dear Mr. Bush,

Roosevelt sat on the couch today smiling for what felt like an eternity. Each giant smile would rise and fade like the sun, burning a spot into my heart forever.

Dan